once again

Once again the realization of deployment is bothering me. Tonight we have a meeting to get things around for wills and POA. that is crazy that we are already thinking about this once December is over it is all down hill from there. Everyone is leaving 29 and I am stranded here. I DO NOT want to go home, like I have said before I hate home so I am not going back there. I am just so scared that something will happen to him this time. Last time I was is denial that it could happen, but some things have changed (OSPEC- not going into detail) and is job could be even more dangerous than before. What do I do, sometimes I am scared and other times sad. It is just crazy to think deployment is right around the corner. I really signed up for a life or this? him coming and going all the time and living in fear every single day. Wow. I don't regret marrying him at all and I am proud of him as a marine, but this is just a crazy realization I have am going to face. Just me and the dog for 7 months. wow, Lord please help me.

scared?

I'm unsure of what has triggered it or why I feel this way but all of the sudden I am scared and worried about Cody deploying again. Even though it is quite a ways away it is still really close and it scares me. We got their schedule right up until it is time to leave and I guess just the thought that every thing is already planned out and we are already planning for yet another deployment scares the crap out of me. I don't know how it will actually go. Last deployment I had school every day and lived where my family was so it wasn't completely horrible yeah I missed him and was worried about him but it wasn't too bad. This time I will be all the way in california and I plan to go home for a few weeks but not moving home that's just insane. I don't know what I will do I kinda go crazy with him at work late somedays since I am here alone... Okay, I have our dog Gunner but it is still lonely. A plus this time is I have a friend who is married to a guy in cody's platoon so they will be together and we will be together. We are partners in crime. I just had to get it out that I am worried and scared and any other emotions that comes with deployment. Last time I didn't freak out until the day he left and even then I was pretty chill about it... I don't know.

Same Thing, Different Day

Basically I do the same things everyday and not much changes. Cody is at the rifle range most of the day I take him at 3 am and pick him up whenever he calls. I clean, clean, and clean some more. It seems like my house is never clean even though that is all I do. I want a job so bad, I can't stress that enough. I am a person who needs to keep busy and I am going crazy sitting here. Ugh... hopefully something soon though.

Last night Cody and I played Call of Duty Team Deathmatch and I always do good at the beginning and then suck it up at the end. I'm sure is someone watched us play they would be entertained. We call each other some mean names and hit each other but we don't really mean it, it is just fun and games. We applied for a loan at the bank yesterday for Cody to get a motorcycle, a Honda CBR 250R to be exact and we are suppose to find out today if he was approved then we can go get the bike. Then we are going to get gear like helmets, gloves, jackets and I have been looking at some stuff online and I am crazy excited. I am scared to ride a little since I have never been on a bike but I kind of feel like a badass. hahaha it just sounds fun to pull up some place and get off the back of Cody's bike. I don't know maybe I am a nerd. I just don't want to die... o_0      <---I love that little face

Where have I been?

Wow! I haven't been on here in forever and I gave up on my 31 days military challenge. I guess things just stated getting busy. I had one more week of school, an open house to plan, packing to do, graduation, and my husband was suppose to be home before I was going to be out there. I had to change all of my plans to get out there. So I flew to LA and had a friend pick me up and my parents drove my car and stuff out here. Then they got delayed in Kyrgistan (I know it is spelled wrong) and then delayed in germany so they ended up getting home on the day I would have been out here if I would have just drove... but whatever. It was so wonderful to see him again. He didn't turn his phone on so I didn't know which bus he would be getting off of so I just stood in the middle next to some big cement thing and I couldn't find him. He called me from someone else's phone and asked where I was and I told him in the middle next to some big cement thing and he asked where is that... umm I don't know so he hung up and got mad. So I went searching for him and left my parents. Then I turn around and he was right there with my parents so of course I went running to him and gave him a huge hug shaking and crying. It was so awesome. I even hugged him so hard I knocked his cover clean off his head :) So we have gotten our house around and got a german shorthaired pointer puppy and named him Gunner. Now, we are just living day to day. It seems like there is always something else we need for our house though. It's frustrating. Now for some pictures.

First Hug and notice his cover on the ground :)

Day 9

Day 9 - A picture of your favorite thing that you or your significant other has made and tell what it is.

well I didn't really know what to use so I went through my pictures and I found the top one that always makes me laugh. Cody made a drawing on my stomach. He used my belly button ring as the anchor and put a boat in the water with fishys. The boat is called "THE Kaitlyn" and it has us on a boat with him doing me in butt saying "I Love Your Dick" and he is speechless with stars and a bucktooth smiley face. Ohh... and my mole is the light to the light house. Can you tell he is the creative one?


The bottom picture is our pumpkins we made October 31, 2011 the day before he went to bootcamp. His pumpkin is the badass looking one and mine is the USMC one (I am motarded) We had a contest and obviously he won.

Day 6, 7, 8

Day 6 - A picture of the base your man is at and tell 5 cool things about that base.

Twentynine Palms, Ca is where Cody is stationed at. Though right now he is in Afghanistan. 

Five Good Things:

1. Warm

2. Not Michigan

3. It is where Cody and I will make our first home

4. It is in California so that means that with a little drive there is a lot too do and explore.

5. Did I mention it is Warm?

Day 7 - A picture of a wonderful friend that you’ve made because of your significant other being in the military.

My very first Marine family friends. I meet them while Cody was in Bootcamp on usmc.yuku.com and though I have never met them they have helped me so much through this whole Marine journey. Shelly in the top picture is a Marine Mom and is very dedicated to her children. She is an awesome person and very supportive. Bryn in the bottom picture is a Marine Girlfriend and is awesome. She is very supportive and can always make me smile or laugh when I am having a down time. I am looking forward to meeting many more moms, girlfriends, and wives when I move to California, but they will always be my firsts. lol

Day 8 - A picture that is your favorite from deployment, or if he hasn’t been deployed yet, a picture of see you laters, him coming home, or him deployed, and tell why it is your favorite.

Well Cody is currently deployed and I don't have any pictures of him leaving me at the airport and though he will be home soon and I will have an over abundance of pictures I don't have any yet. So, I have the top picture from after 13 weeks of Bootcamp at Parris Island on Family Day our very first hug  I am squeezing him to death not wanting to let him go and you can see the smile in his eye and the bottom one is after his Bootcamp Graduation, this just shows how happy I was to finally be with him again and it just looks priceless.

twenty-four days until Graduation and Moving :D

Day 5

Day 5 - A picture of the branch he is in and list your favorite thing about him being in the military

Cody is a Marine. There are two things I love about him being in the Marines...

1. The Uniform, need I say more those darn Dress Blues will get you every time

and

2. After Bootcamp he became a much better person and boyfriend (well now husband)